Recovery from alcohol, drug, or food problems means seeing, really seeing why you needed the false comfort of drugs or the misuse of food. If you were not angry and upset in the first place, you would not need comfort and tension relief in the second place.
And if you did not form secret judgments in the first place, you would not become angry. If you were not playing God, and easily frustrated and angered when your will is not done, you would not become tense and needy of lowly comforts. Incidentally, any addiction or substance abuse (even food) is often based on secret resentment and hostility, and the resulting need to get tension relief. Listen now to Roland's program on Controlling Anger, broadcast on his Southern California radio program.
The most surface issue now is undoubtedly that your wrong self craves and cries out for the false comfort and false deliverance of lowly things we have mentioned. You have fallen to become a creature that now craves the drugs and false comforts.
Change begins not with struggling with your lower nature and its lowly needs, but being able to stand back so that your soul can be objective to the lower self. By now you know that struggling with your own lower self, using anger, is just more of the wrong way of dealing with things that got you in trouble in the first place.
Throwing in the towel and giving in to your wrong self's wrong needs is not the answer either. After indulging comes the inevitable low and even more guilt and pain for having debased oneself one more time.
Finally, resenting and being angry at oneself is just another round of wrong reaction. You will eventually see that each of these faulty "solutions" is just another cop out--another way denying conscience and saving face for our wrong ego.
The only real and permanent fix is to face the truth instead of fighting it. If your soul is ready to drop pride and be sorry for your cruel game playing and judgment, and if your soul is ready to admit it is wrong, then suddenly the proper meditation will work for you. You will be given the power to stand back and observe what is wrong with you without being involved in it. The power of observation is sufficient to begin a change for the better, beginning with your soul.
You will discover that you have the power to observe the wrong without becoming upset by what you see. And with no more emotion added, reason and patience come to the fore. You will have the power to observe and to get better without any effort on your part, and this by the grace of God. It will be a gift to you for being patient with others. And when you are patient with others, you will also be able to be patient with yourself.
The soul reconnects to conscience, intuition, and the God of conscience. Once the soul is repented and experiences a profound regret, it becomes a friend of truth, a friend of conscience, and a friend of God.
Suddenly conscience becomes intuition again, a friend and presence we wish to walk in, not something to run from and avoid.
And when you are a friend of conscience and humbled, suddenly you no longer become tense in the first place or angry in the first place. Without the build up of tension, there is no need for unnatural relief. Suddenly the soul enjoys seeing the truth instead of wanting to run from it. The soul becomes incompatible with the old consciousness lowering activities.
Perhaps you can see what escape artists most of us are. When we're not escaping into food, pleasure, entertainment or chemical helpers, we escape into work and problems for distraction. And when nothing is on the horizon to escape into, we escape into daydreaming, floating away from the Presence in the present on the dream stream of imagination, worry, or nostalgia.
But when you are willing to face the truth, you are ready for the proper meditation to assist you in becoming still and observing self.
If you would like to get started, may I recommend our Anger Management Pack. It consists of 2 CD's. You receive the advanced meditation and booklet, and a special meditation on giving up anger. Visit our website for more information
Roland Trujillo M.S. is Director of the Center For Common Sense Counseling and host of a popular San Francisco radio program that offers personal growth strategies and help with relationship and stress issues. Roland also hosts The Roland Trujillo Show on KCAA Radio in Riverside and San Bernardino. Roland has been on the air for 20 years. He has heped many people overcome emotion-based problems that have a component of resentment, unnforgiveness, and judgment.
